Release ballast

I’ve been quiet as of late from a word perspective.  It’s not that I don’t have words to say or thoughts blasting around my cranium, as the infamous nomeansno belted “There is no stopping a brain that keeps talking.  I know its not healthy, I know it’s not true, I don’t even know who I’m talking to.” my mind never stops talking.  I have for the most part been active on Instagram still, but even that has waned in the past months.  My professional life went sideways and a cascading effect of that has nearly killed my creativity.  There is a possibility that I was maybe on a manic swing on the creative front and flew too close to the sun and crashed like Icarus.  It’s really hard to pinpoint these kinds of feelings and there is probably little value to dwelling on the why and what, those activities are likely to drag me down a pointless rabbit hole.

There were some pretty fucking rad things that happened between my last post in April and now, and some kind of shitty things.  I won’t delve too much into the shitty things but long story short my primary source of income was at risk and this created a very stressful situation.  One that put a lot of things in my life up in the air with questions that had no answers.  Great news though, despite that roller coaster I’ve secured a new job and we’re all good to keep the good ship Merlin afloat for a while longer.  On the exciting stuff front I have a few new book projects on the go, one of them I am really excited to share with you all when the time is right.  The other is a follow up to Queen City Bodegas, we are going to go bigger and deeper and celebrate David surviving against Goliath.  I also have a longer term book project involving photos from the archives going back to the early 2000’s when I lived in Vancouver.  Oh and then there is Boston, a few months ago I went there to attend a workshop with Jason Lee and it was awesome so there will have to be a post for that.

I am going to make more of an effort to use this space to share my thoughts and happenings from both a creative and professional standpoint.  I have been keeping those things seperate but have decided to merge them because they are the parts that make me who I am.  So this blog will be one part creative and one part technical because well that’s me babe.  I have experienced a lot of things good and bad and have learned so much in the past few months.  My biggest take away is to let go, I’ve always dwelled on things, especially bad things as if they were badges of honor.  It is important to learn from the hurt but it’s more important to let go, I don’t want to dwell in unhealthy places anymore.  I don’t want to be anchored to my hurt, I release you.